Where Am I?
Part of the Dali Lama’s wisdom for the new year is “The mark of a great relationship is that your love for one another exceeds your love for one another”. I keep mulling this over in my head and wondering how Chris and I would fare doing the long distance thing.
Laura is coming down in early Febuary, so I am doing much better than I was now that I have something to look forward to. I’ve become a study in when situational depression turns chemical. Being a mental health worker, I can describe my symptoms like a psychiatrist: hypersomnia, anhedonia, impending sense of doom. The only thing I want prescribed for me, though, is a large dose of home and friends.
Maybe meds, but I really think I would be a world better if I was in MI or NOLA. I hate to complain, but whenever I think about what I can do to proactively make myself happier the answer I always come to is just to move. I’ve always missed mo-town since I moved, and now I am always missing New Orleans. Why stop missing at least one of those places and just go there?
Does it ever go away? That inherent sadness? You can be happy . . . but it’s always underneath threatening to take over. I agree . . . I hate to complain, too. And all I want is a dose of home and friends too. I wish nothing had changed from three years ago. But I should be happy with what I have . . . anyway sorry for the long comment - insomnia has gotten the better of me
love,
your sis
Comment by Lexie — February 22, 2006 @ 6:58 am